What's there to fear?

For me its simple...or so I thought! 

   I thought I knew how lucky I was.  I've always said "yeah, I know I'm blessed".  usually people know their fortunate, but aren't necessarily as grateful as they should be until something horrible happens and forces them to see life for what it is!  Yeah, that's happened to me!  I witnessed someone I know go through something so indescribably horrible that I feel guilty for all that I have.  A friend of mine lost his little boy last night, suddenly.  His little boy was just three months old (barely) when he lost his life.  No one knows why or how it happened...just that this horrible thing really did happen.  To say "I can imagine" would not help, because truly I cannot nor do I want to imagine what it would be like to lose a child, especially a baby so young.  My heart breaks for my friend and his family during this incredibly hard time.  I ache for them and have no clue what I would or could even say or do that might make them feel better.  Sometimes its the silence that helps them heal the most.  No one wants to be asked how they are or what someone can do when all they really want to do is forget and move on themselves.  I know coping and closure is necessary, but that will not happen until they are in the right place to do that.

I have three small children myself, and the thought of losing one of my babies chills me to the bones.  I hug my kids a little tighter and say I love you even more often than I already do.  I cherish each and every moment I have with the ones I love, because today was first hand proof that we don't really know how long we have with each other.  That someone can be here one second and gone the very next.  Life is full of sadness and sorrow, thats inevitable.  I will also, laugh often and forget about the bad things, because living a life of fear is no life at all.  If I am only allotted so much time with the ones I love...then I want it to be filled with happiness and smiles.  That way when I'm gone, or if one of my blessings ever leaves me then behind all the sadness and mourning the only thing left will be amazing memories to cherish forever.  I want my family to smile when they think of our time together and I am sure they would want the same.

Life is short, so take advantage of the time we have together.  You never know when the day you have will be your last.